"How could this happen to me?" || VENT HD

"EVEN SHE is better!" "She dosen´s want to be with us because of HER!" "SHE is weird" "Even" so it´s like i´m the worst? Thanks for lettig me know that it is all my fault that she dosen´t want to be with us because of me... Because i´m so childish... because i´m just who i am. "Okay, A, B, C will come but not HER!" Only because i have my earphones on doesn´t mean i don´t hear you... ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I just have enough... Everyday the same! I know I´m the one who always walks away from you but I just feel like you don´t want me to be there... But I didn´t expected that you will Forget me so fast... I remember how you said "We will always be there for you." Now I know that it all was a LIE! Thanks for lying to me... Now you ask me "what is wrong? Why are you always alone?" It is too late, I don´t trust you anymore to explain how I feel. You stabbed me in the back so often, I can´t even count how often! I was always there for you when you needed help! When you cried! Where were you when all that began, when I NEEDED YOU?! Right, you weren´t there. But thank you for showing me how the world really is. After all that I don´t really belive in True Friendship and True Love. It all were just a sweet dream, now I woke up. -------------------------------------------------------------- Sorry guys, I wasn´t saying it all to you. It´s just that I´m going through so much shit and I´m falling apart right now. Crying every night because of this and I just can´t anymore...