Sonny, end to the beginning

READ! please watch in highest qualtiy!I figured now is the time to let you all know what has happened the past few months. To make a long story short (for those of you who dont want to read the following description), Sonny has suffered a serious lameness, in which we contemplated putting him down, and we had to give him away, while in the meantime, four perfect future horses have taunted me, but none to be mine because of unkept promises, lies behind our back, and failed vet checks. Those who know me, know how much Sonny meant to me. It started back in september, when xrays revealed ringbone in the left front. The ultrasounds, luckily, showed that it was a calcification. This was a huge scare, the idea of loosing my dearest friend to ringbone was devastating. This was only a foreshadow of what was to come. Three weeks later, Sonny went unexplainably lame at the on the day of the vet exam (he was perfect the day before). While it was frustrating, I was not worried, Sonny had never been lame before. I thought it was simply just a hoof abcess. But one week later when there was not improvement, we called the vet, whos further prognoses was that he had tweeked or sprained his ankle. Inconvenient, I had thought, as we would have to put off my new horse search for a month of two, but he would recover. So I thought. Soon it was recommended that we get more xrays, which revealed serious ringbone and navicular changes; a terrible prognosis. Reality set in that a horse with such terrible Ringbone developing like Sonnys would have to be put down. The thought killed me, my worst nightmare. Things would only get better from here, they must, I had thought. Wrong again. The ultrasound revealed more serious things than the xrays, inflamations and irregularities all over the right front. he was put to restricted stall rest with small amounts of light handwalking, numerous painkillers and antinflammatories, tranquilizers, long periods of icing, vitamins, and much more. After his restless pacing and weaving in the stall, which greatly worsened his condition and chance of recovery, we found a home to give him away to for a chance to recover. It is unclear if he will recover at all. In six months, if he doesnt recover, it is not worth it for him to stay. I do not want to think about that day. These four months have been more than devastating. I still cant wrap my head around it. Meanwhile, our horse search had no better luck. Because we had to give Sonny away, it made it very risky and difficult to find another horse. Yet still four future horses passed. The first horse was the first horse I tried, and I knew right away she was the horse. The owner was very pleased that we got along so very well. I was so excited, thrilled, that I could reach higher levels with this new prospect. The second day we went to try her, we found out she had been sold. The second eq prospect had a brilliant mind, fantastic movement, but xrays revealed issues. The third, who we